light

nothing familiar  not a smell, not a sight, not a sound nothing tasted or touched   a body without familiar reference points looks in and back and back and back to light   back to a time and a place; to a family where disassociation was a well-worn survival tool when the boundaries of a …

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flying

  She converted her privilege to tools. Her education saved her. All those abstract ideas she’d read, written about, and made her own--they saved her mind. They protected her sanity in a place that worked to annihilate both it and her. An ability to bracket experience, to be an observer, to acknowledge when her efforts …

untangled

She bought herself a chainsaw. An electric one. To cut and untangle the old dead branches around the bottom of the Monterey Cypress hedgerows in the yard behind the cottage. Tree work. Until she’d traded intellectual labor for physical in Oregon, she didn’t appreciate how empowering it is using her body to accomplish a task. …

babyfoot

soft white cold light; fragile flakes boots break a creamy crystalline crust iced pea gravel crunches under treads face frozen, eyes water, fingers numb on the trail to babyfoot lake   first freeze, first snow frozen fog and freezing flowers iced falls and sugarcoated limbs shiny sculpted trees and fractal puddle art   a rising …

dreamlight

full moon splashes a midnight window opening eyes, awake, drown in light: up! shoes on, jacket zipped: out! into the night: fly!   feet dance a dreamlit path between shadows of shadows while cypress rows, bathed in bluelight stand stenciled against a shimmering sky    life in the night light where a jackrabbit chases a bobcat glides …

process

A mind without a living mirror—without sentient affirmation it exists in the world–seeks substantiation. Moving toward warmth, it turns back on itself, like a honeysuckle vine with nowhere to grow, twisting around its own tendrils, winding and tightening; complicating and choking. A mind requires an other to be healthy–a counterpoint, a contrast; it needs difference …